打灰瘾发作最严重的一次,躺在床上,拼命念大悲咒,难受的一直抓自己眼睛,以为刷微信没事,看到微信群里都是打灰的,眼睛越来越大都要炸开了一样,拼命扇自己眼睛,越扇越用力,扇到自己眼泪流出来,真的不知道该怎么办,我真的想打灰想得要发疯了,像中邪了一样!我躺在床上会想打灰,我洗澡会想打灰,我出门会想打灰,我走路会想打灰,我坐车会想打灰,我梦里会想打灰,我玩手机会想打灰,我盯着路边工地的打灰仔看,我盯着马路对面的打灰仔看,我盯着网上的打灰仔看,我盯着朋友圈别人合照里的打灰仔看,我每时每刻眼睛都直直地盯着打灰。我对打灰的念想似乎都是病态的了,我好孤独啊!真的好孤独啊!你知道吗?每到深夜,我的眼睛滚烫滚烫,我发病了我疯狂想打灰,打灰!打灰!打灰!


















