4.30
自从昨天我第一次看了ptx的MV…我思来想去想到今天…终于意识到为什么我以前并不太喜欢acappella了。之前是在其他电视节目里听的，觉得也就那么回事甚至不太好听。我刚刚终于知道了！是因为他们没有bass也没有牛逼的beatboxer！
话说今天的春游，我也虚了一回，睡眠不足加没吃早饭加跑着去学校加晕车，上山时候那个低血糖啊还吃不进去东西，真尼玛太爽了…原谅自己不是个铁人。

5.1
最近在刷love live和怪兽合唱团。节奏感⋯天杀的我还要写wuthering heights的分析教案。还有天杀的英语物理化学作业。留的什麼来著。
今天看窗外貌似风不小还有霾还阴天。中午吃什麼呢⋯一放假就感觉迷了，不想写作业又不想老玩，好空虚= =。要是嗓子不是因为昨天略毁的话我没准就又在家开演唱会了，还不会太无聊。唉唉真是。明天还不知道要不要去练歌。

回顾了一下以前写的东西，感觉我本质上是没有变化，就是言语上更逗比了。

不是说Cathy爱哪一个，她是两个都爱= =。Heathcliff是跟她的狂野很像的本真的爱，Edgar是那种白马王子类型的包容的爱，两个都一样重要，鱼和熊掌。
槽，信息量太大，其实百科里的就足够了，但是我还看了论文…我该怎么把它转变为Cathy的想法还得把它说出来啊。
1. why did i marry Edgar instead of Heathcliff?
because i simply thought if i married Edgar, i could help Heathcliff. but if i go with Heathcliff, we could be homeless. i darn't think of it.
2. if Edgar and i had got more time between us, would the result be changed?
if Heathcliff never came back, i might lead a happy life with edgar, but i would never forget heathcliff. and the fact is, heathcliff came back to me, for revenge.
3. what did i think about Heathcliff, my real husband or just a lover?
4. is my love with Heathcliff pure? if i really loved him i should have go with him but why i paid attention to the level?
i cannot explain it clearly, i think i love both of them. heathcliff is like me, and edgar is an ideal husband for every woman. when i accepted him i had already predicted that he will be rich, so that i could help heathcliff. moreover, i want them to get on well with each other. i must admit my selfish because there is a saying says 'you can't have it both ways‘, but i tried again and again to balance the two people in my life.

5.7
http://my.tv.sohu.com/us/63348941/30591196.shtml

5.9
啊。这个周末好像，好忙。
1.帮Josie写duty report的感想；
我敢说Josie没再问猛哥谁写文章好然后就把这任务给我了。
2.研究性学习结题；
进行的比我想象的顺利。
3.构思周一怎么传教；
踏马的lxy课间突然告诉我说周一的班会需要我上讲台讲一下学习，因为我这次进步了10名。然后我打断，我踏马的还进步了！？就这破分还进步了？还十名？连砖都比我高。然后她说，啊不是，这次进步的人很多，但是因为你是语文第一所以还是要讲。诶我日，这怎么讲啊我自己都不知道。作文作文不是最高，默写还错了，古文还错了。
4.总结卫生部资料；
拖拖拖半个学期。
5.做presentation的准备；
下周四，呵呵。
先这么多吧。

5.10
最近电影社的分工。我在管理中心。本来是因为做财务，结果annie师姐说要拨一个人当场记，那肯定是我啊。之前她还分给我做表格的工作呢…瞬间觉得技术含量就降低了。好啊还是那句话，做场记我就做最好的。但是maps剪片子的时候你们用了场记表了吗？我这一摞表除了做档案还能有什么用？我要做最好的场记，但是我不想做最好的无用功，不是说我觉得场记没用，而是我希望你们能把我记的东西利用起来。想想不坐办公室也不错，运动少不了。我现在就盼着暑假老妈别给我报个什么团带着姥爷出去玩，我要拍片子我要赚存在感我要好感度。我要做好场记也要做很多场记以外的东西。我不想进了电影社一年还没有进步，不想只拘泥于场记和财务。我想把我在电影社的最后一次活动，也许，搞好一点。之前跟一帆商量了她可以让我跟着专题片组混=v=。我也想摄像。其实数数除了场记和财务的工作越来越娴熟细致之外，我还搞清了5D搞清了录音棚，又收获了那么多朋友。其实也挺没效率的。
就今天我可是知道坐办公室有多无聊了…不过借着这机会拿圈的电脑下了个Cubase，就是死活找不着插件的下载。觉得自己又up了一点。我是为修音而奋斗的。说句带刺儿的话我就是不信他们中大多数人能唱多好，我花了半个小时按新歌词和圈和师哥唱的改写的简谱居然没人能识谱我也是醉了。不过如果我觉得这是无用功的话我就不会一秒都没犹豫就动手做了。
其实周五试镜的时候，一定是这种情况：来试镜的觉得高大上觉得紧张，后台乱成一团。
还有，周五完事之后开会的时候，annie师姐说表的问题，后来交给那对最萌身高差去管，结果呢，我把表拷走看了，他们连看都没看就撤了。永远要往最坏的想然后做好plan B。
一说电影社就会码很多字。我是喜欢它吗还是在它里面找成就感和鄙视别人的快感呢。其实这二者是相辅相成的。

5.11
突然想起之前czy给我发好友申请，我就习惯性地翻个人资料。虽然他居然跟我是同年生，虽然他只比我低了一个年级…但是这…朋友圈内容的差距也太大了吧…就一自恋的小屁孩…自恋没关系但是你这一表现出来就…哎。

5.14
哎真的从小学到现在，那种人我无一例外都很讨厌，他们还偏就整天在眼前晃悠，反之另一种人就完全没在我的世界，以至于现在我都怀疑要是那另一种人突然从他们的世界出来了我会不会开始讨厌他们。然后自从初中毕了业我就没再划分过那另一种人了，而那种人我却仍然讨厌。
话说czy，人，自恋是可以的，但是你是否能在小事上稍微收敛点？比如我昨天那场场记。我说，我无非是拿着两根笔两张表一个板，你说我能忙到哪去？还不至于忙到连号都记不过来吧？不过是姿势有点别扭，你至于一下就把笔要过去要帮我改写数字吗真是没谁了。挑的还是个最没水准的活儿。我现在是觉得场记分两个人干又没效率又没精确度，你肯定不是我肚子里蛔虫吧咱这又没默契，这就费时间了不是？而且你抢了我的活儿我很无聊啊好不？干场记最幸福的感觉就是几乎一刻不闲着的在写数字填表格，跟着摄像跑前跑后，运动多多，不会无聊。
说起来这次潼潼没参加，又想起真正意义上她导的片子是去年这个时候的石洞。你是要艺考的，你真的大丈夫？好好学啊就连我也都是有下限的。
返回来说场记，一个不知名的师姐重新告知了我场记的重要性（虽然我以前也知道，但是我感觉不到剪辑组的重视），get到了中景和近景的打板位置。虽然师哥说都能看清楚，但是还得吸取师姐的建议。
猪（不是我这么写他，他自己的昵称就是这个）如我所料是个装逼到极致占有欲极强极爱管闲事的人。管的是凡是能让他逼格高起来的闲事，并且烧钱。不过这种人也好，装逼装的特别直白，就是直说自己装逼，不像我这种呵呵的；并且土豪，带一拨人一起浪。用钱堆起来的友谊。想起《斗鱼》的第一个故事。可以说除了偷钱，挺像。也挺悲哀的。但是如果他自己不觉得的话那就是另一回事了。
我把我自恋的屁话都扔这儿，出去收敛好好做人。

6.10
4. He hated Heathcliff. Because he was a whiner and couldn't bear that his father treated Heathcliff better than him.
5. He was sent to work outside with the farmhands.
6. They played outside very late one day and saw the light there, they were curious about how the Lintons was spending their Sunday.
7. She became not so wild and had shoes on her feet and the way of speaking and acting had also changed to a gentle way. She began to realize about the social class and had a bit gap with Heathcliff.
8. Frances. She gave birth to Hareton and died.
9. He was broken-hearted and fell into bad ways.
10. Because Heathcliff was a Gypsy and if Catherine had married him, they might have been begging on the street and had nothing except the love between them.

11. Because she thought it would degrade her to marry Heathcliff.
12. They both had illness and died.
13. He changed into a rich and gentle person, and crueler than before.
14. 18th century, England.
16. He made Hindley go bankrupt and finally killed him.
17. No he didn't. He wanted to revenge on Edgar and Catherine so he married her.
18. Catherine changed from a wild happy girl to a woman who pay attention to the social class tragically. Heathcliff knew the cruelty of the society but he still used to love Catherine and Mr. Earnshaw, but at last he's love was perverted and he had nothing but hate in his mind.
19. She was house arrested by Heathcliff and led a terrible life.
20. Linton Heathcliff. Little Cathy.

6.18
真的我上辈子造什么孽了非得跟他排一块连分班了都阴魂不散。我特么从小学毕业以来就没这么讨厌过一个人。小学时候是那个那个谁，wh，把我这样儿的都逼得干出告老师这种事来。然而现在这种情况还不能告老师。妈的我想换座位想了很久了。期中我考得好的一部分原因就是那之前我一直坐在左下角与xiaoqian和666为伍，搞得非常欢脱。然而考完就换座位了一直换到现在我才换到靠墙第二组，这个学期是换不开了cao。恶心。人啊是jian呢还是jian呢我都快想撕逼了，我妈又说这是一很好的资源，留着。我真是日了狗。你以为你是谁，自信过头可不好= =。